There is "Nothing Missing, Nothing Broken", not in Noah, anyway...
He is missing from my arms and my heart is broken but not destroyed. I have not met a more perfect little person.
Today Emily said after our photography session, "Mom, don't let him go." I said, "I won't but if Jesus wants him, I'm not going to disobey because do you remember how mad he got when the disciples tried to discourage the little children from coming to him?"
You see, when Jesus directed us to have faith like a child, it was quite simple, really.
Think about it...when we tell a child that there's this God that we can't see with our eyes or feel with our hands who created the whole universe, that loves us unconditionally,
He lives in Heaven and there are castles there,
no crying, no sadness, sickness or hurt...usually the response is, "I love God. I want to go there!"
Then, we "grow up" and take theology classes and try to figure God out with our minds and we really screw things up...There is a reason that Jesus was so in love with children and why He still is today-they are not tainted with "higher education" or lofty thinking. They are pure, they are simple. There are no complications, no denominations, no classes, no reasons NOT to believe. It's pure faith. Faith like a child.
I believe Noah had that kind of faith. Or, at least he taught me to have it by living his life out loud in front of me.
We will post more pictures from our photo session with Em and Noah prior to laying him before the Lord.
We thank you for your overwhelming response of support, love and prayers. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts. We covet them as we know our lives will continue on this road of radical transformation...We have a peace that surpasses all natural understanding, and, of course, at the same time I want Noah back more than anything else in the entire world. I'd give my life for him if there was a guarantee that he'd wake up and be with his dad and sister!
He touched the deepest, most tender part of my heart.
I guess he had the same effect on the Father heart of God, too...so he got to go there, to His arms, and delight His heart. For that we are grateful.
Please know we will continue this blog because we know it is just the beginning of a legacy from Noah's service to God that beyond our own imagination...
Also, we wanted all of you to be able to have a cyber-wake, as weird as that sounds. We know that you have fallen in love, so we wanted you to be able to see his angelic face as he sleeps peacefully in the arms of his loving Savior.
(*pinch me, please, because it is surreal that I am posting this...)