Sunday, August 10, 2008

Thank all makes sense now...

2nd or 3rd day in hospital
(Notice the blue in his blankie is the same as the house in Mexico. Personally, I could stare at pics of him all day...oh wait, I guess I already do that:))

I just wanted to say 'Thank You' for all of your encouragement and prayers. I've been praying that God would lead me in the right direction for the right counselor at this time. I have received a few names, one operates on a sliding scale, so that's helpful given our current financial sitch, but I'm just going to trust God for the right person and the right timing. Personally, I may take up garage 'saling' just to break dishes...I really like that idea. Actually, I have been recently missing a self-defense class I took at the college where I worked. We got to spar each other, and let me tell you, that was FUN! I used to do kick-boxing, too...that was exhilarating! It made me feel a bit "G.I. Jane" ish. I want to hurt something, not someone, so a punching bag would be nice...recently, training for the AVON walk, I get a lot of time to talk to God, listen, and think, but the only thing that hurts after that is me, from the hips down! A padded room sounds inviting,too, for obvious reasons. *I read a passage from the blog from a year ago...this must be a yearly anger may recall this rant if you've been here a while...

The thing is, even though Noah could have been treated upon his admittance to the hospital, I don't blame the docs or nurses. I am disgusted with 'The System', but I know that most of Noah's docs and nurses loved him and wanted to care for him...and cure him. One of the chapters in Noah's book will be 'My Theory'. There I hope to crack open a whole new world of saving little ones and begin to raise awareness. I'm still doing a lot of research so don't want to speak prematurely on any of it, but with regard to Noah, I do believe his rapid health decline could have very much been prevented.

Well, Em and Jason are off playing tennis so I have a few moments to myself. I need to email my growing 'Noah for Knockers' team because we have some serious fundraising to do. We have 4 members, soon to be 6! One is a cancer survivor from blog world that I look forward to meeting and walking with. Another is a 'Locks for Love' donor from January 12th who is studying diligently to one day be a Physicians Assistant. The other two are girlfriends from from Seattle and the other lives in NYC. That means, as a team, we need to raise $10,800.00! Holy Toledo, Batman! We have $50, thus far, without trying, so need to get a plan. We want to do a silent auction and get sponsors from local businesses. If anyone is interested in donating a service or items to the silent auction, you can email me here. But, given the recent advice, how much would you pay either to break a plate yourself or sponsor a mom who would love to break multiples? Huh?! Shall I do a 'Break a Plate' drive? I think I'm onto something here...helping people find a cure while helping others deal with anger...I like it...


  1. It's so fun to see a picture of Noah where his eyes look so bright. I can see why you want to stare it all day! :)

    I'll go yard saleing with you... :)
    (When I was having anxiety issues, someone suggested throwing eggs in the shower. I never did it, but it was fun to think about. )

  2. I've been thinking and praying for you and your family like crazy! I love this picture of Noah and with his eyes open, Such a beautiful boy.

    The breaking of dishes sounds great!! Who wouldn't be up for that:) I think it's great that you're doing this walk. Breast cancer did not touch my life personally until recently when my 39 yr. old cousin died from it. Thank you for doing this. Wish I could do it with you!

  3. Ever since you posted the link to Angie's site (Audrey Caroline's Mama), I've been reading it. Did you read her blog about smashing the pitcher and then gluing it all back together again? That seemed like a cool excercise. . .although perhaps not as satisfying as smashing a whole stack of plates. . .and definitely more time consuming.

    . . .Also wanted to mention that tomorrow my 6 yr old is getting her big 'ole pony tail cut off. We plan to donate it to locks of love. I'll be thinking about you and Noah. :)

  4. so stinkin' cute :)

  5. I am the ultimate plate breaker, and it's wonderful. something very healing about the sound of shattering glass. seriously, I am lifting you up sister. I can't know your pain completely, but i know what it feels like to feel gut wrenching grief when you know you aren't bringing your child home.
    Jeremiah 31:3-4 says "I have loved you with an everlasting love. I have drawn you to myself with unfailing love. I will rebuild you. YOu will again be happy and dance merrily with tambourines".

    I am believing that for you today.
    Blessings on you Sister..

  6. Anonymous3:17 PM

    He is beautiful.

  7. Noah is such a beautiful boy! Look at his handsome face (OK, I KNOW you do about a thousand times a day!)

    I just struck me - his blanket material - that's the same material I have for my son's sling and nursing cover. I will think of Noah every time I see that material.

    Thank you!